I do not tend to write in such a manner as to draw attention to myself but rather the thoughts on my min and how they might interest others. Rather than being an action driven narrative like most news productions I shy away from such journalism. Many years ago I did begin a course in Journalism, and do have an English Literature qualification. That said it is clear to any readers of site material here that I am not trying to produce news here but rather discuss more philosophical and ephemeral matters. That said I do feel a connection with the readers of this site and would at times like to be more personal in the way I communicate to you all, yet not become to egoistic or arrogant in thinking that I have any greater importance or merit as a messenger for other subjects of great import to mankind at this time.

I suppose some do wonder what makes me create a site and discuss these matters when the easier choice would be to simply live my life, and ponder such matters in the confines of my own skull like the quieter majority of people. Clearly there is something that pushes a relatively young man into creating a web site that looks largely at fringe topics and elements of the supernatural. As my site blurb states, I have worked for several large corporations and respected institutions. Currently I work in the property market however, and am happy to be away from the big companies with there cultish modes of existence.  I am very aware of the fractured levels in our society that are at times discussed by conspiracy sites all around the world. There is no doubt that the banking system is run by shady figures with peculiar occult connections. At the higher levels of our society issues such as the international ‘Credit Crunch’, are matters joked about over champagne by our controllers. I do not say ‘controllers’ in some paranoid fashion so as to excuse myself from control of my life situation. The highest echelons of society can only control the direction of people via the control of the actual civilizations functions and aims. On the personals level I retain control of myself so long as I am aware that it is possible to be controlled to some extent by external forces. Being aware of the possibility of control is sufficient for one to run self checks to see whether ones opinion is really all one’s own, not simply the cultures, or the governments position as espoused on television for us to regurgitate.

Like many people in the middle class of England I attended a ‘good school’ with a long history and tradition. My classical grammar school education was designed to head me toward University and a ‘Career’ for life. Its fair to say that such an education is successful in most cases and does provide the public sector workers, office clerics and military officers (more meat for the grinder). Amongst former school mates are several high ranking military intelligence officers, teachers, business executives and legal figures. I myself was greatly affected by the Rave music scene in England during the 1990’s and it really is only thanks to that I did not follow such a linear engineered path in life myself. Declaring our freedom through dancing illegally in British fields, whilst often imbuing mind altering substances, radically changed hundreds of thousands of people in my generation. It was a new interpretation of the familiar spirit of the 1960’s but with a distinctly modern feel, confronting more modern issues.

Through the amazing connections experienced total strangers found in these situations, these celebrations of life, a way to connect as brothers and sisters, as friends without a history of friendship. Although ecstasy is marred by the fact it is a dangerous drug for some individuals, it does have the ability to connect people on a deep level for short periods of time. These experiences are for some people very life altering. Large dosages over long periods though do tend to cause mental illness such as schizophrenia or intense paranoia. Whilst the media of the time focussed on the obviously false idea that Ecstasy was invariably a fatal poison, they ignored the more factual problems it caused to mental health. The same can be said for acid and several other psycho-pharmaceuticals readily available to the people with adequate connections. The doses I took were not enough to drive me mad but they did expand my consciousness in as much as it became clear that neither the ‘physical world’ nor my personal mind-space were anything like as fixed objects as previously assumed. Some experiences do not gel well with classical school educations on reality around us.

Though I did not simply abandon the middle class school system as indeed some did, I just took less interest in it. My former ‘A’ and ‘B’ average spiralled downwards into ‘B’s, ‘C’s and ‘D’s. Still just enough to get me through with reasonable qualifications for college. College was a deterioration further as my laughable attempts with the opposite sex came more into play. One thing that spending large periods of times stoned or on mind altering drugs  does not help with is ones ability to work romantic interests optimally. Invariably my relationships were emotionally painful and left me licking wounds, seeing obvious mistakes. I suppose many of us would have a similar story regarding our early love life.  

Alongside these matters of the scene in which I dwelled and my interpersonal love difficulties, there was another factor that caused some doubt about life as it was supposed to function in my school lessons. I was experiencing psychic phenomena, most notably telepathy. At times these were intense experiences, with bizarre two way feedback, where I would be able to project lines of speech to another’s mouth rather than simply pick up what they were thinking. I even influenced actions and feeling with certain persons I encountered.  Certainly there are clearly negative aspects to such things if done knowingly and deliberately, however this was simply spontaneous experience for a young man engaging with his formative life experience in his early years. I did not see this all as being completely amazing, as I did not connect such matters to spiritual factors. As an atheist with an open mind I favoured the approach taken by the Russians in such matters. That simply put, psychic powers were a matter of some invisible wave function occurring between individuals, rather like an advanced radio system. The physical brain had a connection available by means of frequency waves as yet undetectable by us. Interesting indeed to me, yet not quite enough to blow my mind completely.

For a moment I will back track, because it is also fair to say that before entering the secondary school system (11 to 16) I had already encountered the mysteries. Thanks to my grandmother giving me the collectible cards in her boxes of tea, depicting great mysteries of the world, I was hooked by the unknown already. Pyramids; Crystal Skulls, Crop Circles, Aliens, Poltergeist, Ancient Computers, Nazca Lines, Olmec Heads and Bigfoot. As a ten year old I was not able to investigate very much, but certainly I pondered these matters and did tend to read books on ghosts and mores magical stories. It would be years before such matters regained a focus due to outside events. I had a foundation on which to build later, that is the key to my point here. It is due to such a early start that the appearance of psychic energies did not cause me more shock and trauma I suppose.

I do not seek to convince anyone about my claimed psychic abilities or anyone else’. I have had a time of being more public with such matters and prefer to examine rather than test at this point.  What I do however happily engage with is the reality that I am far from alone, the more people I have been open with the more incredible stories have flooded back in to me from those around me, around us all. It becomes clear that far from supernatural or psychic matters being rare and totally specialist, they occur generally and to many, many people.

Those that do not experiences such things have every right to be sceptical and  suspicious of such matters.

The people with such experience however should have more engagement with each other however as it is the only way to fully catalogue the types of experience common in all humanity. We only learn through sharing knowledge and experience, to hope to comprehend something like intuitive abilities of supernatural forces we need general public engagement. Its time for people to make an admission to the record, that these forces are not only definitely really, but very common throughout the global population.  Being raised and educated in the West, does not prevent individuals seeing ghosts, aliens or visions for example.

During the last ten years or so I underwent some radical experiences that shifted me out of my mainstream headed pathway. I did attend University despite my falling grades and dispersing ability to bother with writing essays or studying for exams. Some experiences with a Ouija Board habit and episodes of telepathy were the only areas noteworthy here in respect of my four years at University [to end up with just a Higher National Diploma]. Mostly I just got drunk, partied with girls and spent large sums of money (the source of which I will not discuss here) amidst lazing about generally.

It was during the initial period of my new ‘career’ in banking that I began to become rather more troubled. Despite that trapping of a ‘good life’ something was unsatisfactory about everything occurring, everything present around me. Ironically I had a good education, good friends, good accommodation, loving family, beautiful girlfriend, respectable employment and a significant cash flow, living in London which is one of the world most action packed cities. To a huge number of Earth citizens it’s called, ‘living the dream’, yet I was most annoyingly dissatisfied. I would certainly not have readily traded it in for abject poverty, disease and starvation, I am under no illusion about how fortunate a position I was in. All I can say is that honestly I was not happy, not satisfied, and not convinced that this was a complete life for a human being to live.

Very soon after this feeling had begun to take hold a number of things happned that cranked up the more peculiar side of my life, that which concerned the supernatural elements. It transpired that my girlfriend had abilities of her own, far stronger than my own in fact. Other around me turned out to be of the opinion that they to were gifted with certain psychic abilities. I met numerous people very much involved with occult or paranormal matters, largely thanks to the internet with its many forums and chat groups.  Thanks to old hands in organisations such as the Spiritualist National Union and certain paranormal investigators, as well as learned spiritual contacts, I gained a more solid foundation for self exploration in these concerns. My situation in fact became perfect for a journey into my very self, all the support required had now manifested in my life.

I was all the while also devouring texts, books and articles on every strange subject I could find. With this intensity of focus cam enhanced psychic happenings, indeed for a while I even worked (unpaid) as a psychic medium. The list of types of supernatural events I have had is to long to list here and even in my book much of it has had to be left out to keep it a manageable length. I sometimes like say that I am happy to talk on any subjects from Aliens to Zombies, Akhenaton to Zoroaster or Astral travel to Zero-point physics. The intensity of my transformation in consciousness did have prices to pay, my relationship and indeed for some time my psychological well being, both collapsed toward the end of the most intense phase of my journey. In hindsight of course this was necessary to purge my old way of being. Death for the caterpillar is simply birth for the butterfly, it all comes down to modes of perception.

The combination of having experienced the supposed great life offered by materialism, as well as having experienced and studied into more esoteric matters, led me onward in the fullness of time through various lines of investigation. Though the intensity eased, much in the way that David Icke explains what happened to him during the early 90s, I still had much that concerned me about consensus reality. I did however except the need to re-engage with it to keep a balanced keel. Either of these extremes of focus are seemingly unhealthy for our minds, in my opinion at least. It is important to integrate the supernatural with the mundane, the two form a more meaningful picture when overlayed correctly. Once one integrates these hemispheres, it is possible to bring to bear a greater intensity of focus on subjects to be examined, particularly in regards to the occult, conspiracies or fringe science topics, and of course spiritual matters.I can only assume that people read my posts for that very reason. I do not fully depict a mythical landscape, nor a cold hard graph, when I engage with subjects, I attempt to forge a middle way. One might call me perhaps the ‘sensible weirdo’ or ‘thinking man’s oddball’. Certainly an eccentric by my societies terms, and the nail standing up waiting to be pounded in the views of some more fearful persons around me. The shear factual reality of what I discovered meant that I could not simply bury my head in the sand simply because that was more sociably exceptable, it became abundantly apparent that the world needed more of us to raise the issues made apparent by revealed hidden knowledge, as well as by supernatural phenomena commonly occurring.

Though I am very concerned by certain world events occurring at this time, political, social, economic, governmental and environmental, I am equally concerned by the state of play in the minds of the global populace. Actually that’s of far more interest to me than everything else, I am not very sure that everything else is anywhere as near as important as I used to think it was. The cart and the horse definitely seem to switch places in light of my own discoveries about human nature, indeed largely based on the discoveries by many persons far wiser than myself. Once we except that supernatural phenomena is a genuine part of the physics of our Universe we are forced to examine matters of fundamental reality in a new light. Whether a person sees a ghost, perceives the future, travels outside their physical body or remembers a past life they are proving that the old laws of physics are incomplete (nor wrong per se) and new rules need to be recorded. Ignoring the fabric of reality does not changes it’s colour we might say.

Although 2012 is a beacon of metaphysical change to many alive today, that change has to be analysed and discussed in more depth. Some of the people talking about ascension, new dimensions, and spiritual evolution may have no perceptual idea how these could work, whilst others may have but choose not to say anything. Only a few of the people stand up and debate the matter via books, articles, programs, physical meetings and web sites. This needs to change rapidly, people must coalesce into a more effective working community in these regards these crucial points, as they will likely change everything in our future global society.

Clearly for some there is no discussion to be had, however to the rest I ask simply…what do you think?